Good to Go

Going to get pierced. I love college.

Girl, you and me ain’t talking much
I just slam the door and leave in my truck
There ain’t nothin’ left for us
I think enough’s enough
I look down, see your name there on my phone, then I hit ignore and just drive on
We’ve been living like this too long
There ain’t no reason to turn around
Baby, you can have it all

I ain’t, I ain’t coming back
I’ve already been there, done that
And I’m done with you messing with my mind
The last times the last time, baby
I can only change who I am so much, and all I can give is all my love
And my love ain’t never been enough
So I ain’t coming back
I’ve already been there, done that

Street by street and town after little down. 
Feels like that I’m on the right road now.
I bet you’re wondering how, I could just walk out.
I put you high up as I could
And I know I’ve done everything I should, to try and make a bad thing good
I guess it just took too long for me to see, that we ain’t meant to be

I ain’t, I ain’t coming back
I’ve already been there, done that
And I’m done with you messing with my mind
The last times the last time, baby
I can only change who I am so much, and all I can give is all my love
And my love ain’t never been enough
So I ain’t coming back
I’ve already been there, done that

I’ll wake up and I’ll start to second-guess myself 
And I’ll crave your touch, oh but I know too well

I ain’t, I ain’t coming back.
I’ve already been there, done that
And I’m done with you messing with my mind
The last times the last time, baby.
I can only change who I am so much, and all I can give is all my love
And my love ain’t never been enough
So, I ain’t coming back
No, I ain’t coming back
I’ve been there, done that

That’s my new motto. Done letting other people bring me down. I’m better than that.

This has been quite the frustrating day. I went and worked in the hot sun cutting up tree branches and moving them and whatnot. Then came home and decided to take my car to the drive-thru carwash because it looked like I had driven through a dust storm. So I go and pay for the expensive one and wait my turn in line for a good 45 minutes. Finally its my turn and I drive in. The machine rinsed my car and then just stopped. Then the green light came on insisting that I drive out. Fml. When I went inside the guy told me it was my fault but eventually gave me a new carwash code . Yay -_- . I then drove home angrily refusing to wait in line for the rest of the day just to get my car wash. So then I got home and my dad took me down to the wash your own car place where I almost died using the pressure washer. Then we got in a fight on the way home. Took a shower when I got back and just sat in bed. meanwhile I have a creepy guy texting me making me scared for my life and im also texting the guy I’m hopelessly devoted to. What.the.fuck. I’m blaming myself for my bad attitude. But I’m blame the car wash man for making everything worse. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day.

Damn. Is it that I don’t know when to give up? The sad part is that it’s all actually bringing me happiness.. and nothing is even happening.. just talking like friends. This may be a mistake, but if I keep doing it, then maybe it’s a mistake worth making. Round 2? Maybe not. I guess I’ll just have to see where it goes. It’s not like other people haven’t repeatedly screwed me over before. No matter what I live. And right now I’m taking a chance…that’s a huge part of living, right?